As I type this message their is a child somewhere afraid to go to sleep because their abuser usually enters their room around this time every night. There is a little girl who doesn’t understand why her Daddy or Uncle touches her the way he does. There is a little boy out there who fears his drunk parent is going to kill him the next time he hits him.
And I am overwhelmed at it all. I wish I cou…ld save them. The children are afraid to tell because they have been threatened or because they fear the family will be torn apart and it will be all their fault. They wont tell because they are ashamed or because they think they did something to deserve it. So they keep it all to themselves. And then they grow up and when they are strong enough, wise enough or safe enough to tell their story they are told “Get over it.” Let me stop saying “they” and say “we” instead. We don’t get to wear a survivors ribbon because it is such a shameful subject and no one wants to talk about it. Very few ever feel safe enough to tell the world “Me Too.” Most times we are criticized for the fact that it happened so long ago and questioned why we don’t just grow up and let it go….
Well,I was one of those kids that was afraid to tell. I didnt think anyone would believe I could have been molested by 3 family members consistently from the age of 12 to the age of 18. I was sexually assaulted well over 1200 times total throughout my childhood. Almost every night and sometimes twice a day.
Over the last few days something has been fueled inside of me. I have decided I will spend the rest of my life encouraging people to share their story. I will spend the rest of my life trying to lift the cloak of shame that covers such a horrendous act and keeps the victim in hiding. I will spend the rest of my life encouraging children to TELL!!! I will spend the rest of my life working to banish the ignorance that surrounds the subject of child abuse. I wont be ignorant to the fact that Child Abuse cant be stopped. But the shame can be lifted so people can come forward, whether it was 30 days or 30 years since your last assault it is never too late to TELL!